A gift
Yesterday, I was given the gift of a new start. I am finally able to start from zero....from nothing...and create my life for myself. Later today I will start the story portion of my blog....ahhh...the fact or fiction....only I will know...and anyone who ever cares to read this......will guess...which is fact and which is fantasy.
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It's interesting because when I took the Landmark Forum.....I felt sooooooooo...free...and then that feeling went away. And do you know why? Because....I didn't change...as long and as consistently as I should. I am seeking to train my mind to live in "The Now". not the past...not the future..not someone else's past...or someone elses future. Mine...all....mine.
It's funny when you figure out that you had the right idea a long time ago, you just needed to hone it. The phrase "It's all about No Rib" was coined when I was in high school, into college. Well...it is..and it's not. It's all about me...what I choose to do and then be COMFORTABLE with that. I challenge myself...to create my own integrity. To enter into a world where whatever I choose to do is fine with me, and when I make a mistake.....and realize it's a mistake....I immediately get over it and move forward.
The world is a beautiful place....my productivity can be unmatched. I have a lot......inside of me that I will achieve......and I still have a desire...that will be fulfilled.
Time is an illusion.....so waiting truly becomes a matter of perspective. Waiting for what? For someone else to.....like you, to hold you, to have sex with you?
Waiting..for that job, for that car, for that tv, for that new table set, for that check to come through, for that opportunity to present itself....that is ....foolish. I miss out on life when I spend so much of it waiting.
I live.....I am alive.....I am here NOW. And I will enjoy my now..this very moment..as I type these words....I feel happiness....in this moment....as well as my future. I choose to enjoy my future.....I choose to enjoy my reality. Through my choices...I have altered my reality in such a huge way...and yet it wasn't that hard...why couldn't I see it?
I had 2 cases which were hanging over my head...and by removing them, I have suddenly released myself. Was it that hard to see? I could have done that a long time ago. The key is to...retrain my thinking....don't do the same old things all the time......(do the new old things all the time LOL :)........so I am excited....
My next post...starts.....the stories. I know one thing, I LOVE my stories......ahhhh.....to remain in the past even as you enjoy the moment....but I can learn...from both fact and fiction.....from being bold and shy at the same time :).
I am thankful for my gift...and I vow not to return to the place I was...and enjoy wherever I may go....but for now....I...breathe.....easy
I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It's interesting because when I took the Landmark Forum.....I felt sooooooooo...free...and then that feeling went away. And do you know why? Because....I didn't change...as long and as consistently as I should. I am seeking to train my mind to live in "The Now". not the past...not the future..not someone else's past...or someone elses future. Mine...all....mine.
It's funny when you figure out that you had the right idea a long time ago, you just needed to hone it. The phrase "It's all about No Rib" was coined when I was in high school, into college. Well...it is..and it's not. It's all about me...what I choose to do and then be COMFORTABLE with that. I challenge myself...to create my own integrity. To enter into a world where whatever I choose to do is fine with me, and when I make a mistake.....and realize it's a mistake....I immediately get over it and move forward.
The world is a beautiful place....my productivity can be unmatched. I have a lot......inside of me that I will achieve......and I still have a desire...that will be fulfilled.
Time is an illusion.....so waiting truly becomes a matter of perspective. Waiting for what? For someone else to.....like you, to hold you, to have sex with you?
Waiting..for that job, for that car, for that tv, for that new table set, for that check to come through, for that opportunity to present itself....that is ....foolish. I miss out on life when I spend so much of it waiting.
I live.....I am alive.....I am here NOW. And I will enjoy my now..this very moment..as I type these words....I feel happiness....in this moment....as well as my future. I choose to enjoy my future.....I choose to enjoy my reality. Through my choices...I have altered my reality in such a huge way...and yet it wasn't that hard...why couldn't I see it?
I had 2 cases which were hanging over my head...and by removing them, I have suddenly released myself. Was it that hard to see? I could have done that a long time ago. The key is to...retrain my thinking....don't do the same old things all the time......(do the new old things all the time LOL :)........so I am excited....
My next post...starts.....the stories. I know one thing, I LOVE my stories......ahhhh.....to remain in the past even as you enjoy the moment....but I can learn...from both fact and fiction.....from being bold and shy at the same time :).
I am thankful for my gift...and I vow not to return to the place I was...and enjoy wherever I may go....but for now....I...breathe.....easy
posted by NoRib at 4:01 AM
1 Comments:
that is so awesome and such a big part of where i wanna be....
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