Rambling

What do I do? How do I move into the present and internalize that all the lessons I have learned in my past don't apply to most women? I mean....let's take women. You know it seems the worse you treat a woman..the better they treat you. But that's not all women. Or is it? Why do I wonder about that?

How do I move beyond the idea that it's NOT about my outer appearnace..my outer..achievements. It's about what I want....what I say I need....to be fulfilled. Why have I felt soooo stressed out for so long and for no reason? How do you move beyond this space?

Again..I have a feeling..that I am soooo close. I mean soooooo close! Something huge is about to happen, but I'm not sure what it is. I feel like I am getting more and more in tune with my.....godself..my inner nature. I have to be careful....about my associations now. I think now more than ever, that is critical. I have been blessed with some great friends. And of course there are those who.....don't need to be in the inner circle in my life anymore. Anyway...as the title says..I'm rambling....