Forming your personality-drawing the line

So. We all know that we have our limits to our personality. What is it that we will put up with? What is it that we won't? When will we change? When do we forgive..when do we seek retribution. I am reminded about my own limitations, what I set for myself. I know that deep inside of me..I think I made an entry earlier about whether I am cold or warm inside. Deep inside of myself, at my center, there is warmth. I can be warm and make decisions that other people don't like. But I really think that at my center I am love.

However, outside of this center....encasing that warmth..is ice. It is the cold look I get in my eyes that let's someone else know "I'm not the one". The look I get right before I'm about to say something crazy in court....or right before I'm about to tell someone something they don't want to hear. I also know that there is a certain amount of glee in my eyes before I do anything like this...as if someone else, or some situation has released that part of me, and allowed me to be...ignorant....to inflict pain....to.....engage in my negative side. Is that a bad thing? I don't know. I do know one thing. I have hit a limit of mine...and as Tupac said "There's going some stuff you gonna see..that's gonna make it hard to smile in the future" What is it that we hold on to..to make those hard decisions? To be comfortable with things we wouldn't have done otherwise? I digress....I just want to look back at this post...and remember...there are times when a fork in your road is arrived at, and after seeing what I have seen....you can close just a peice of your heart....again.