Purpose....

So...I ask myself..what is my purpose? I mean what is my purpose..the one that I should focus on...the one that I can zoom in on, the same way I'm zooming in when I'm on trial?If money is truly just a means to an end......it's the end that I need to devote my focus on....and how to get there. At what point does that "magic moment"..that "aha moment"...just.come to me? maybe what I feel so uncomfortable with on a daily basis..what nags me in the very back of my head is that I feel like I have no.....clarified purpose. Again, whatever I'm looking for...whatever I'm seeking is inside of me. I know this. So why is it so difficult to locate the path inside of me? To be consistent with certain things.....to eliminate this procrastination issue that I've been facing for soooo long. If my purpose is to serve...then how? Why can't someone print a simple step by step book on exactly how this thing is supposed to be done.....the path to reach wherever I want to reach? (and if you say the Bible, I will slap you...I said simple....that means not requiring other reference books LOL :)......how do you balance being happy and satisified with where you are and where you are going? Just questions I have bouncing around in my mind right now....